Favorite Otome Moments (VOLTAGE INC EDITION)

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Coming from the Otome Amino #20DayOtomeChallenge, I’m going to be talking about my favorite moments that I loved or couldn’t forget in visual novels or otome games. 

You ever play a game and you either laugh out loud or just get hit in the feels? Or maybe you grow an inflated ego and yell at the character on the screen to ‘bring it on’ because you’re prepared to see what kind of trouble you just got yourself into? I’m like that, a lot. While Idon’t have all my favorite moments here, I do have the top ones that make me either laugh, squeal, or tell the person, ‘challenge accepted.’



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Trying to love a Tsundere like……..

I have my favorite Tsunderes in Voltage Inc and below are a couple of my highly recommended Tsun-Tsun/Oresama mixes. They tend to be hot n’ cold and very funny to poke fun at when given the chance, and when you can turn them red or get them uncomfortable. It’s the best thing to happen in the game, because you’re either rolling from laughter or saying, ‘FINALLY I GOT YOU TO BLUSH, YOU ASS!’

That blush say’s otherwise, Yamato…

Yamato Kougami from My Forged Wedding is personally one of my favorite ore/tsun mixes, he’s a good cook, a private school teacher and he’s really sweet when he stops being a brat about it. He talks with his roombas and he tends to be a perfectionist sometimes, however, when he falls for you he’s the most endearing man. However, trying to get him to blush, be surprised, or bet stunned into silence is pretty hard, so when I actually captured him blushing. Oh… You best believe I screencapped that moment. LMAO!



Takuto Hirukawa from Love Letter from Thief X, is probably the best example of a true Tsundere aka Tsunderella. He can never tell you properly that he is happy you are smiling and laughing with him, so half of the crap coming out his mouth is him telling you that he loves you. So basically what he said up there actually translates to his way of saying he likes how you laugh, even if it doesn’t seem like it. I promise, I’m being serious. LOL.



Akito from My Forged Wedding is another type of Tsundere, while he’s not as brash as Takuto can easily be a cool type as well. Depending on how you want to view it, this photo was taken by accident when I was reading the Halloween Special, and I rarely capture these kinds of moments. However, because of the incident that occurred, which was Yuta Kajima falling on top of me and doing something … Akito reacted strongly, and I liked his concern (aggressiveness) here. 


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Oh my god, Yuzuki Kitaoji from Seduced in the Sleepless City, both him and I have a long history of his oresama/tsundere love for me since 2014. I admit I actually was already attracted to him in the beginning when I first started the game, but I went and fell for his brother later. However, Yuzuki has his moments of adorkable events when he tries to be sincere or express his feelings for you. At times the MC was dense as bricks to not understand what he was doing, but you eventually understand when you get him to say it properly.


Stop being a dork. You like me. It means you have the hots for me Tsubasa!

Tsubasa from 10 Days with My Devil has a mouth on him that could be used for other things, like keeping them sealed tight like how he does for his modeling work. However, he’s got a way with words like most Tsun-Tsuns, and he can’t be forthright about his true feelings. But when I caught him blushing and saying this ridiculous statement, I felt that it was just desserts as we as the readers finally catch onto his game. 

Albeit, you probably catch onto to it sooner, but I digress LOL.



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The food grudge is real…

Below are some of my favorite moments with the guys from Voltage about how ‘the food grudge’ is real, as much as other people don’t have this kind of issue, I actually can relate to it. Especially if someone steals my food, you best believe that I’m going to get revenge because nobody messes with my food unless I have openly invited to share. Obviously, I’m open to sharing if you just ask but otherwise…. THE GRUDGE IS REAL.



I remember crying from laughter when I saw this moment and was rolling about on my bed because these two are lovable idiots. It was one of the many times I would agree with both Shiki and Haruhito from 10 Days with My Devil about something considered obtuse to a regular person. Obviously, it’s about food, and we do see this happen in their game every now and again in certain people’s routes. I highly recommend this older mobile otome game for anyone who wants a pretty ‘fast-paced’ romance with some sexy demons and food grudges.


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Takuto is going to be appearing in this post quite often just because he’s got so many memorable moments that you can’t ignore, or contain your laughter from. This guy has a huge grudge against anyone who steals his pork noodles, and when I mean he has a huge grudge, you more than likely will find all your personal info and social medias changed to something sinister. Our sexy tsundere hacker truly adores the simplicity of his noodle bowl, and when someone tampers with his food… you best believe it’s on like Donkey Kong.

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I’ve stated in previous blogs and also in my new podcast episode on Gray’s Otome (shameless plug), I’m not a big fan of dom-types as they’ve become pretty volatile as of late. However, if you can search the older games from Voltage Inc, you’ll find the treasure trove of the more likable and incredibly sexy character type. Below are some of my favorite moments with this said character type, and their antics.

Thank you for admitting it.

Okay, this wasn’t a screen cap from Subaru Ichiyanagi’s route from My Sweet Bodyguard, but he definitely makes it hard to resist him in other people’s routes. Similar to Yamato, from up above, he likes to cook, he’s a neat freak and he has a tendency to be over the top, especially when it comes to work and you. He’s hard to get embarrassed unless you do something completely out of left field to him, but when you can make the man blush. Screen shot, laminate it, and hang it on your wall because he’s quite adorable when he admits his true feelings. 


Um… because I want to be nice…?

Keith Alford from Be My Princess was so hard to love for me, just because he feels he’s entitled to everything (including you), he really knows how to get under your skin. However, when you start to understand how this prince acts and talks, it’s easy to figure out what he actually means. Technically in this moment above, he’s quite irritated/jealous that you’re giving gifts to other people, and he’s appalled that he’s not getting all of these said gifts. LMAO. (Jealous boyfriend, ahoy~!)


How about I feel you up, with a barrage of books from your library? (WINK)

Satoru from 10 Days with My Devil wouldn’t be our resident Sadodere if he didn’t have one of these comments up his sleeve. Similar to Ryoichi from Seduced in the Sleepless City, Satoru has plenty of MOMENTS where you either blush, shake your head, or want to take all the pillows on his couch and whack him a good one. However, when I played his sequel, I remember hoping that he would have grown a little, and he did but his opening line to a certain moment definitely had me rage for a bit. LMAO.



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Here you’ll find my ‘what in the actual fuck’ moments, where I couldn’t wrap my head around certain statements or things happening. Then, when I did finally understand them I’d either laugh or just screen cap them like so, and just present the material to other gamers and ask them what they’re thoughts are as well. Obviously, I’m certain that most of it would be… ‘What the actual fuck?’


So back before Pirates in Love got its update and everyone went back to their original JP rooted characters. Shin, the gun crazy Sadist in the game was known as Eduardo and let me tell you something, OMG I swear the crap that came out of this man’s mouth, I was like…




“Whoa… Satan, you haven’t bought me dinner yet or a collar and leash, give me a moment.”


To say the least, Eduardo/Shin is definitely one of those characters you have to be very patient with to understand but sometimes his mouth could be used for other things. Like eating, drinking, and eating cucumbers….

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Now here’s a moment that really threw me and most likely a lot of people for a loop playing Our Two Bedroom Story, that one time Kaoru was asking why we were dumping him… only to realize he was talking to Tama-chan. While the moment should be listed as cute, I still was a bit like ‘well, excuse me what?’ because I wouldn’t dump such a cute guy who happens to hit the door with his head every other day of the week. This gentle giant is pretty possessive btw, if you’re looking for some intense sexytimes with a Kuudere type.


I love you Saeki.

Saeki Takamasa from My Forged Wedding is another one of my favorite Sadoderes, and he’s pretty funny too with his flirtatiously bad lines. He has plenty of moments in his route where you find banana peels, and his gaudy fashion sense to be overwhelming. However, he’s a genuine sweetheart with a bit of a sadist/masochist flair to him. Maybe he can be a ‘switch’? Either way, you’ll never be bored with him and the moments he can provide whilst playing his or anyone’s routes.


That moment… When a guy looks better than you in a dress…

Yep. This happened, plenty of times in some of the Voltage Inc apps, and you best believe the guys wore the dress better than the MC at times. Not that I’m opposed to dressing our heroes in women’s clothing because that’s hella funny and it’s just desserts as punishment for some of them. However, when this moment occurred in the games, I would be left a bit speechless as to why they couldn’t have made the guy character a girl for me to romance instead. While the MC must of felt bruised in the ego, I was more like:

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So this one time at band camp, we went to Hiro’s house and Kenshi said something that made everybody stare at him like he had grown two-heads and sprouted a whip for a tail. I replayed this scene over and over in the old app, and while we are luck to now have a ‘rewind’ feature in Love 365’s app. This is still one of the golden ‘wtf’ moments of the game itself. 

Kenshi from Love Letter from Thief X is typically the brawns of the group and very sweet, but he does have his moments where he is an airhead, but we love him anyway. 

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These are my number one favorite moments in the Voltage Inc games, whether it’s making all the men blush or having someone admit something. A proclamation of love to the MC, these were moments that made me go gaga over the fact that these 2D men could be so cute AF. Like I cannot even deal with how they can make me bark rainbows when they blush or say something sweet, or do something heartwarming, it’s not fair. LMAO!

Says the person who’s writing love letters in the library!

Shion from A Knight’s Devotion is similar to Shiki of 10 Days with My Devil, as they are the cool type character who try not to show their emotions. They hardly allow it to come forward and they sincerely don’t want you, as the reader, or the MC to catch onto when they’re feeling their emotions. I’ll admit, when I first met Shion I already knew he was going to be a very cold version of the kuudere, but when you figure him out, he’s a very adorable bookworm and possessive man who lacks words when he speaks, but he can definitely write about it.



I must contain the fangirl in me and keep her at bay to try and write this small little slot of info about my husband, Yuta Kajima from My Forged Wedding. I swear to the gods above he is so damn adorable and I cannot help myself when I see him blush, even for the simple things, the man is actually a wolf in sheep’s clothing so don’t be fooled by his comedic antics. When he finally confesses his heart to you, I think I started bawling my eyes out besides jumping up and down and almost breaking my phone at the time… Yea, husband got me sprung on him. However, this is still one of my favorite moments from the game.

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Okay, so now that I’ve calmed down some from Yuta, up above, I wanna talk about a moment where all the guys from the first season all blushed at the same time. Minus Yuta because the moment was caused by him and the MC, what you see above is when Kunihiko mentions that MC and Yuta share the same room so their shouldn’t be a reason to doubt that ‘adult’ activities are happening.

Yea yea… Because the MC is ‘lily white’ to the men in this crew, it takes no effort to make them all blush insanely at the thought of what the MC and Yuta could be doing. However, nothing was even happening at this point of the route, but it definitely went into my hall of fame of screen caps. 

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Yutaka Tennoji… Oh man, this guy really… SMH, he’s a tsundere with hints of oresama and gentleman all at once. He is definitely up there in my top husbands for Voltage Inc, and albeit he’s a lot easier to tease than most of the other men listed here. This Otaku/butthead/tsuntsun isn’t so terrible with words but he’s definitely bad at trying to express his emotions. He usually bottles it up to a point that it explodes and then comes flowing out like lava and taking you with him, which I don’t mind since he’s pretty considerate and adorkable. 

This moment was when he couldn’t take it anymore about what he wanted to do with the MC and just kinda, let loose… like a maelstrom… at the office… Tennoji we are gonna get our asses in trouble. LMAO. 

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You know… as a gamer there are times that a game breaks the fourth wall or manages to implement scenarios that are far beyond relatable to reality, and you have to sit there and go, ‘yep, that’s me.’ Below are some very good takes on how I feel in real life towards certain things, people, and moments.


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Shiki Kurobane is definitely relatble on all aspects of the spectrum of real life, he enjoys sleeping, collecting figures, and sleeping. SO when someone wakes me up from a long overdue naptime, obviously, I can be just as cranky as he was in this scenario from above. However, compared to Sheeks, if I don’t get sleep… then my family and everybody else kinda suffers around me because I can be petty like:

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I work out everyday except the weekends but I hate cardio or anything that has to do with running. So you can imagine how I started to cry and laugh my ass off at Takuto for attempting to run up the stairs, this is relatable on so many levels. I can’t even see how people like those stair climbers at the gym or just running up the side of Koko Head Trail in Oahu, because no, my body is not ready and you cannot make me LMAO. 

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Back to my emo days, this comment from Takuto is an actual gem and I couldn’t stop dry heave laughing from it. I know he sincerely doesn’t mean it (I actually think he does), but it was too good of a moment to not screen cap and talk about since he’s just being a dork. This made it to the hall of fame because 1) It’s Takuto 2) This became an ongoing joke with friends 3)It’s relatable on certain days 4)It’s Takuto

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This is more of the wildcard batch that after hanging out with the men from Voltage Inc you kinda just go with the flow of what they say and see what happens. Not to say I was willing to do anything, but more that I was already like, “okay, I like you already, take me, LOL.”


Oh Shion, if only you could have just stayed naked and allow me to ‘scrub’ your back and check over your scars. Since you know, I need to study biology and anatomy for medical research and stuff…

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You know when they first introduced Hyosuke into Love Letter from Thief X, I wasn’t fond of him at first but he does have some ideals that I can follow through with. Like when the men of the Voltage Inc games tell you not to follow them or get closer to them because they need to brood in a corner somewhere… Let’s just say, I like Hyosuke’s approach better. 

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260Oh darling, this post wouldn’t be complete without Riki Yanase from Love Letter from Thief X wrapping up my favorite moments with that dirty mouth of his. He’s the oresama/dom that you’d love or hate, but can still be good friends with in other routes. He says some of the more suggestive and provocative lines out of all the crew, and I can’t hate him for being honest with the MC, albeit, I hate the MC for being too much of a pushover in the beginning, but I digress. 

When in Rome, do what the Romans do and let’s have another round, Riki LOL.

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What are your favorite moments from your otome games or visual novels? Let me know in the comments below, as always, thanks for stopping by and see you on the gaming side!

#OtomeWritingChallenge “React”

Part of the #OtomeWritingChallenge we dive into a fanfiction that’s on a slightly more mature level, reader’s discretion is advised

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Challenge: Hey Chicka! So, remember the good old days of your horror/suspense writing back on Tumblr when you wrote fanfiction for most of the voltage times, but they were all a little ‘strange’ (snicker). Call me a sucker for the creepy genre but can you please retell/rewrite the story about the Vampire and the Witch, you can cut out the ‘sexy’ scenes if necessary. However, most supernatural beasts come with ‘that’ kinda craving, ne~?


Sammi, I’m even surprised you remembered that series because I had to lock that stuff up after the thirty-one days were over for October. I don’t mind rewriting the story a little bit to fit a different audience, it’ll help tie a few things into others… I suppose. However, going back to my roots every once in awhile won’t hurt too much, unless the characters in the story bite me lol.



 “Fleeting Memories…”

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Mud slicked my bare feet, as a low hanging branch tore into the side of my face as I ran deeper into the woods. A cacophony of voices screaming through the forest as I escaped down the side of the mountain. My heartbeat in my ears as I refused to look behind me, the fear intensifying with every step I took until a deafening howl pierced the ominous sky. 

Don’t look back. Don’t look back. 

Tears streaked my cheeks as wave after wave of anxiety slammed into my chest, I could never go back, I could never be a normal girl again. “Agh!” I screamed as my foot caught into an upturned root of a tree, my body tumbling forward into the foliage of leaves, vines, and rocks. I wish I could have died then, praying that one of the upturned stones I rolled over was sharp enough to pierce my chest or cause enough damage to let me perish. 

Alas… The Goddess was possibly mocking me as I found myself sprawled next to the sea cliffs that overlooked the one thing that separated this hellhole from the world. I wasn’t sure if I was feeling tears or blood streaking down my face, or maybe it was both? As I turned agonizingly to my side and began to crawl towards the cliff, if the land refused to allow me to die then the sea shall take my last breath. 

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No… I screamed inside my head as the voices were drawing closer, I couldn’t be caught by them, not again. Dragging myself forward towards the cliff I tasted salt in the air and the gentle caress of the wind as it beaconed me forward to its embrace. Grabbing the edges of the plateau I heard someone break through the trees and let out a blood-curdling scream as I dug my fingers into the earth and pulled myself forward and over the cliff. 

The wind howling around me as I closed my eyes and waited for eternal slumber to finally swallow me whole. 


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February 14, 1715 Paris, France

That memory always seems to come back to me whenever I’m not at my strongest, I let out a pathetic chuckle. Memories always had some understanding when to attack you when you were feeling lost, alone, or guilty of a crime. Today, I could of lost my life, and I would have forfeited it gladly in the event of just trying to stop the clock of destiny from causing another person’s pain. Yet…

I examined my hands, my eyes tracing every inch of skin that had been damaged in the skirmish from earlier. Cuts and abrasions left their marks on my flesh as a cruel reminder that I could never escape my past, or just who I was before I came to this century. Balling my hands into tight fists, I could feel my nails digging into my palms but I couldn’t stop shaking with the emotions that churned inside me.

I had been a fool to go into an area without properly assessing the extent of danger I would be putting myself and others in, I had been selfishly wanting to find the truth to create an end. No, I wanted to cause a disruption in destiny and make an easy exit for my soul to stop fate, and shut down a system that could no longer harm others witches born with similar gifts.

A sigh escaped my lips as I finally unclenched my hands, the tendrils of blood nonchalantly slid down my already damaged skin. Getting caught in enemy territory was always a risk, but the sadistic and perverse intentions of the enemy… What I had seen would fuck with the minds of any veteran of bloodshed. The burns from the shackles around my wrists ached as I remembered the struggle of breaking my own wrists to slip my hands through the small metal holes.

An unhealthy move, I know, but when you’re used to dangerous situations you learn manners and tactics to assist in escaping from detrimental events. However, I could say I was both lucky and unlucky in this situation, as I closed my eyes and remembered how I had managed to help the others escape, and at the turn of events when I wasn’t paying attention, I had miscalculated and had put my comrads lives on the line.

When the only life I was calculating to put an ends to a mean was my own, sadly, my mistake was now also the reason I was being held captive in my room. If it hadn’t been for the interventions of the vampire king, I… They… I raked my hands through my hair, blood further highlighting the ends of my tresses.

A witch who was ready for death, no, I was prepared for my own soul to be stripped from me. Yet that man, his presence haunted me no matter where I went or what solitude I tried to achieve without needing him beside me. Love, passion, and hope were not made for me– I was an entity created for the soul use of bringing pain and triggering a legacy of more bloodshed.

My heart clenched as I remembered Satuski’s eyes when he saved me, his expression reflected anger, pain, and worst of all… betrayal as he lead all of us back to Le Comte’s Manse. Carrying me against him and refusing to exchange any words between us throughout the journey back. The look he held sent chills down my spine, as I felt gripped by the reality that vampires hid their true demons well, but it would take the right person to get underneath their skin to trigger the monster within.


With a bang, the doors to my room flung open with a grand flourish, sunlight trailed in behind the fierce being who presented himself at my door. Anger seething from every muscle in his body as he slammed the door behind him and stalked towards me. Most would of fled in fear, begged for forgiveness at the face of one of the three vampire kings of this world. Invoking their wrath was not something any normal lesser vampire, human, or ghoul would want, but luckily I was neither of the lot.

Satsuki stood over me and took my wrists into his hands, I schooled my features to a blank slate and met his burning scrutiny, allowing him his anger to come at me.

“Do you have any idea what you’ve done?” He snarled as I held my own ground, staying silent as I allowed his anger to wash over us, “we told you to not make such foolish plans without consulting us, without speaking to me first.” I felt his grip tighten as he looked at my hands his fangs sliding out from behind his lips as I sensed his bloodlust curdling within him.

“I miscalculated,” I stated coldly, “I never intended to get Yuzuki or Chihaya caught up in my own plans, but… I do regret my actions in putting them in danger.”

Suddenly I felt my body falling backward onto the bed, my hands pinned above my head as Satsuki growled, “do you even regret putting yourself at death’s door?”

I stayed silent as I held my gaze against his, allowing him to see the truth reflected in my heart, “no.”

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Silence danced between us as he stared down at me with his scarlet gaze, a concoction of anger, sadness, and possession seeming to overflow as he seemed to have made up his mind. “You leave me no choice except to do something so you take your life seriously, Athena, and my warnings.”

In a fluid motion he brought one of bleeding hands to his lips, his tongue slowly tracing the cuts and bruises in a delicate dance as he held me under his scrutiny. His saliva healing the wounds as he continued to lavish my wrists, fingers, and palms with his mouth. A steady beating reverberated in my chest as liquid flame began to pool within my belly as his teeth grazed the delicate lines of my palms.

A moan escaped my lips at his ministrations as I realized what he was doing, “stop Satsuki,” tugging my hand back only to have him bring his lips to the other wounded hand. Repeating the same actions, the bed dipping from his weight as our bodies practically aligned.

“No,” he echoed the words back to me as his teeth sang into my wrist and as a wave of pleasure trickled down my body, “I won’t stop, not this time Athena.”

Releasing only one of my hands he let his free arm slide under the arch of my spine as he pressed me firmly against his hard body, allowing me to see him fully and understand the gravity of my situation. “You are free to attack me, Athena, I know full well you have the power to slay a vampire with your gifts.”

He watched me with those eyes filled with desire and hunger, “but if you don’t care for your life like I do, then I will gladly take it from you and make it mine.”

Satsuki leaned his face closer, his lips caressing my own as he held his predator gaze, “I will take everything that belongs to you so that your heart, body, and destiny belong to me.”

“That’s horrib–” My words suddenly drowned as my lips were enveloped in his kiss, the tension that had been building between us since the beginning chaotically going over the edge. Every thought, emotion I had cultivated to this point to keep myself away from this man overflowed as I felt my free hand tingling. The energy flow of power surging and readying to attack him as I lifted my hand over his back and prepared to strike him, my heart racing as I tasted copper between our kisses.

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A groan escaped me as his lips left mine to trail down my throat and his teeth dancing against my neck as I knew it was now or never, I closed my eyes as I brought my hand down against his back and balled it into a fist. My body arching up to meet his as I bared my neck in submission to the vampire king and felt the sweet joy of his kiss against my flesh.


Gray’s Corner

I had written a small fanfiction about three vampire kings a long time ago back on tumblr, while the scenes are suitable for a younger generation in the true version. It was nice to go back and see this and fix it a little more, albeit, my writing is still not the best, but that’s always going to be my opinion.

I’m glad you read a little of my fanfiction and also a bit of my past style, thanks for reading thus far~!





#OtomeWritingChallenge 3 “Cemetery”

(Consider this a continuation of #OAGhost ‘Arrival at Beltha’)


(based on events from real life that happened during my travels for work, reader’s discretion is advised content has mild language and frightening situations)

While it’s summer and not autumn, awhile back there was an #OAGhost challenge for Halloween, and I wrote about one of my experiences encountering something strange and fairly supernatural with Mirai Kageyama (Seduced in the Sleepless City) as my newbie coworker. To be honest, that wasn’t the last of the oddities that occurred with our contract in the small town of Beltha, and this writing challenge I’ve decided to pursue allows me to explore those ghost stories a little more… 

For privacy reasons, real names and locations have been changed 

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Challenge: You’ve moved to a small town where everything is still not up to date with the city life you’re used to. Adjusting to the new life your about to embark on in this town, you start to notice peculiar things about your neighbors and the town itself…

Which otome character is with you? 

Does something odd occur while you are at home or work?

Are your neighbors truly suspicious, or is it your mind playing tricks on you?

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Sunlight had gently laid a hand on my skin, finding its way through the slit between the blackout curtains I had installed the day before. I twitched from the languorous warmth that tickled my flesh and found myself stretching sore limbs from last night’s shift. Opening my eyes I was met with gray shadows and the soft glow of my night light in the corner, I turned to stare at my alarm clock.

It was 1:14PM, I should be proud that I managed to clock in about seven hours of sleep given how crappy my sleep cycle was from being the NOC shift nurse at Hope Hospital. I love my job, and I did sign up for the night shift contract in Beltha, but for some reason, I was having a hard time adjusting to the job. This was annoying, considering I was more experienced than Mirai was, and I’m supposed to help him navigate and adjust to his life as a traveler.

A groan escaped my throat, I still recalled last night vividly as a patient had gone into cardiac arrest, panic had grabbed all of the staff on shift and if I hadn’t barked orders, no one would have calmed down. It was a rare sight to have a young patient have a heart attack, but our duty as medical travelers and workers was always to save their life and get our heads in the game.

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Directing a Code Blue while waiting for a doctor to come was stress-inducing, but also, second nature to me as I saw the CNAs and Mirai’s faces in my mind and how they were listening intently to my orders. I remember Doctor Sezaki marching in and asking for report as we intubated the patient and I guided the others on the steps necessary.

We had managed to resuscitate the patient and stabilize his vitals as we rushed them to the ER side but as soon as we entered the ER lobby. His vitals began to crash, and try as we all did… We lost them in a span of forty minutes…

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“Time of death, 0300…”

I closed my eyes and placed a hand over my face and recalled Mirai’s face as he witnessed his first brush with a patient dying on us. While I knew he was new to traveling, his background in medical was only having worked in a physical therapy rehab center in New York. I still remember his expression of grief at the nurse’s station as we wrote our reports, and how I felt nothing.

“It’s okay to feel nothing…” I said to no one, as I moved my hands away from my face and sat up in the darkness. Death was nothing new to me, and over the years of working in the field, I had learned to detach myself from feeling too much for any patient. You can call it my safety mechanism to not get too involved with people, “it’s okay to just be…”

I pulled myself out of bed and looked at the journal I kept on my dresser drawer, remembering that I had journaled my feelings of last night into it before drowning myself in darkness.  With a sigh, I got up and drew back the curtains to let the sunlight pour inside my room. A sigh escaped me as the trees from the forest greeted me with their effervescent aura, the scene would have been lovely, had my backyard not been connected to a graveyard.

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I glanced into the trees to see the stone crosses and mausoleums in the distance, the shadows of the monuments casting an eerie appearance amongst the trees. I’m not new to death, working as a nurse for many years has taught me to see death through a new lens, and respect it. I’ve attended funerals of my deceased patients, and relatives and never felt the unease and trepidation walking amongst the pews of the dead.

Yet, as I narrowed my eyes to see a little girl walking in the trees with a bouquet of daisies in hand, there was a stab of trepidation being here. Nothing should phase me anymore when being tossed into a brand new area, even the city culture differences. However, something was odd about this town and how everything seemed … too quiet…

I shook my head, it’s a small town, of course, it would be quiet and practically off the grid of normalcy.

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A knock at my door pulled me out of my thoughts, “I’m awake,” I called out as the door slowly opened to reveal my roommate/co-worker’s face. His disheveled tan locks fanning out at all ends to show he had also just woken up as well, walking at a snail’s pace towards me he stretched and yawned as he stood next to me and looked out the window as well.


“Morning,” he sighed, gazing out into the trees and looking at the graveyard, “I don’t know if I can get used to seeing a graveyard every time I wake up from dreamland.” Turning towards me I felt his eyes on me, a look of concern crossing his boyish features as I looked into the graves once again.

A strange buzzing noise, something that reminded me of cicadas could be heard in the distance as I somehow felt entranced to keep looking out into the graves. My eyes wandered as I heard Mirai speak, but I somehow couldn’t hear him as I felt a tug in my mind to look into the shadows of the trees.

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I almost gasped in shock as the little girl I had seen from earlier was now looking back at me, her eyes like glass dolls peering up into the window with an indescribable look upon her face. She no longer held a bouquet of flowers in those tiny hands, instead a stuffed rabbit dangled from those her tiny hand as she tilted her head to the side to look at me before running off into the forest.



I jumped at the sensation of something grazing my cheek, pulling back from the window I saw Mirai’s hand had reached out to me and was in mid-air. I watched him look out the window and then return his gaze back to me again, “did you see something interesting?” He joked as he let his hand reach out to mine, his thumb caressing the top of my hand as curiosity filled his eyes.

“I thought I saw a zombie rise from the grave,” I quipped as I pulled my hand away from his touch and went towards the door, “come on, let’s eat breakfast before our day off escapes us. I wanted to go into town and explore a little more.” Turning away from him I went into the kitchen to avoid any further conversation about the cemetery, in doing so… I missed Mirai’s gaze had returned back to the window, a grim expression on face as he stared out into the forest.

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Writing this takes me back to those days in the small town I lived in for a few months, it’s nostalgic, although it does bring back some chills… However the case, it is up to the reader to decide on which parts of this short tale was true and which one wasn’t. Thanks for reading!



My Inner Child Otome-Style

(Reader’s Discretion is advised, some of the elements I talk about here can seem dark, but do not be alarmed as there is sarcasm, mild profanity, and happy endings here)

Inner child work is the process of contacting, understanding, embracing and healing your inner child. Your inner child represents your first original self that entered into this world; it contains your capacity to experience wonder, joy, innocence, sensitivity, and playfulness. (Loner Wolf)

I had gotten a lot of good feedback on a prior my #ShadowOtome post, and I felt the need to explore a little further into this area of healing and representing sides of us we leave in the shadows. One of these facets is our inner child, shadow work, and healing your inner child actually go hand in hand.

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However, I wanted to explain that healing your inner child is not the shadow, ego, or self, this is a part of you that is a whole other half of the spectrum of therapeutic work. While I won’t go into therapy here, I realized that a lot of people I’ve spoken with over the years who’ve played otome, they have certain characters that touch their heart in a certain level.

A fondness that reminds them of something similar that happened to them in their past as well, for example, when your favorite toy was suddenly tossed in the trash without any explanation. Being punished for no explanation by family members, or abandonment by friends you trusted. We all carry a wounded child in us, and thus when Otome Games bring certain personality types for us to romance.

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Some of us recognize similarities in these 2D men, whether it’s Chiaki Yuasa or to Hijikata Toshizo, there’s a certain element the men bring to the table and remind us of something that occurred unconsciously or consciously about our own self.

In this post, I wanted to show the 2D guys that hold a special place in my heart, albeit, they can be eccentric or wily for most people. They remind me of my own inner child, and reading their stories helped me come to face some of my own trials and tribulations. While I’ve come a long way from my past self, their stories are a good reminder that we must love ourselves, and always with loving ourselves, we will heal.



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Inner Child Facet #1 Chiaki Yuasa, “I was abandoned.”

Chiaki Yuasa was one of the first Shota-S types I encountered in Voltagelandia, he is the youngest member of Seasonelle that you work with, and while he is respected and seems like a good sport. Looks are terribly deceiving, and the mask he wears to hide his true personality is fairly twisted indeed. However, when I played his story, the way he spoke and reacted to the heroine reminded me of something in my past and made me pursue reading him further.

You find that his mother abandoned his father and him when he was fairly young and ran off with a new lover, because, apparently, his mother thought his dad was having an affair. When the truth was, he was so career-driven that he forgot about communicating and having a normal conversation with his family… Due to also having a bad relationship with his last girlfriend as well, Chiaki has a lot of trust issues.

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However, the heroine breaks down the walls he built and helps him to heal in his route and the future ones to come. His route reflects a part of my inner child that was abandoned, albeit not in the same way he was but I understand that feeling and hurt. Which caused me to sincerely love his character and the way he portrays himself in front of people and also the heroine. He also represents, overprotectiveness and jealousy, which is cute in its own way as when I’ve become good friends or lovers with someone with no boundaries I’m fairly the same.

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Inner Facet Child #2 Ota Kisaki, “Betrayal Knows My Name”

This post was actually started because of him, I had been talking with a few friends and his name came up and we had a discussion about his personality and … tastes. Now, I know in a previous post I made a comment about him and his ‘certain’ ways, but I have a heart for the man. Ota is truly gifted in the creative art world, and I have nothing but respect for how far he went for it.

However, talent has its own consequences… While his family meddled in his affairs of becoming an artist in some way he makes it out on his own under the tutelage of someone he trusted. Sadly, this trust was broken and became a mark of betrayal for Ota when the person he trusted stole his work and made it seem like Ota was the one who was plagiarizing.

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He puts on the mask of an ‘Angelic Artist’ so he can put a distance with people and keep them far away from him, in actuality, he was keeping himself away from being betrayed again. His story called out to my own inner child having something similar to what happened to him, happen to me and the regard of trusting others after the aftermath, it is difficult.

In the story, you uncover what lays beneath that mask of his and eventually pull him out of his distancing schemes and earn his trust. While it is a WILD AF ride to get there, his character is understandable at how he tries to keep people at arm’s length away from him once you find what wounded him. Similar to Chiaki, earning trust is a hard game for even me due to past events but like Ota, I’ve learned you learn to trust the RIGHT people again after seeing their actions.

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Inner Child Facet #3, Yuzuki Kitaoji, “my brother is better than I…”

Okay, I love Yuzuki to death. He is one of the rare tsunderes out there that I truly have a huge STRAWBERRY heart for, and I can relate his wounded child a lot. Being the youngest out of the Kitaoji brothers, Yuzuki may seem confident in a lot of things but when his brother gets involved he lets his brother win. A lot of this stems from being the shadow of his brother, and while we all know Yuzuki has astounding capabilities that his brother does not, he tends to be insecure about certain things including women that he and his brother tend to like.

I have a big family, and we are what you can call “blue bloods” in the medical and military fields. It’s though being either the youngest or middle child of your family especially when your family praises your elder sibling more for accomplishments that you have either not achieved or yet to achieve. While Yuzuki loves his big brother, and it never shows any rivalry, you do see it when the heroine comes along and that’s when we see Yuzuki become torn about what he truly wants to fight for.

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His character is relatable to myself but also a good amount of my closest friends were having to be compared or go up against an elder sibling who we see as far more superior. We tend to be hesitant in making our own moves, regardless of the fact we may be a seasoned pro at what we are doing or have a passion for it. Yuzuki’s wounded child probably hits a big core part of my inner child, as someone who grew up in an Asian heritage family, a lot of things I was succumbed to was to follow the lead of my older siblings or cousins.

While I know Yuzuki still shows his complex every now and then in the series, it lessens over time and he learns to heal eventually from his complex.

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Wow, that was a ton of inner child unraveling for me, and my own inner kid is sticking out his tongue like Hiro. Since I’ve acknowledged a couple of things over the past to get where I am in the present, looking at these guys and remembering their stories are always a good reminder that maybe someone else out there sees this way too. And maybe, with playing otome games, they can also come to understand their own inner child and reparent themselves in a way to heal their heart.

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